It has been told to us US meaning those who now have that second chance of life that you will suddenly have the urge to make up for lost time. Which is fair enough. I mean why not??. Suddenly you are wanting to do things you have either struggled to or not being able to do at all. So mine has been shopping. Whether it has been a coping mechanism, or what, it has just been something i have always  wanted to do.

I have not being proud of who I am at times, due to not being able to take the time to just feel good about myself, even though needing to deal with this huge weight on my shoulders.(pre op). I now  however have the ability to try clothes on,  I don’t think it’s about being materialistic it’s just the Act of going forth and making the clothes fit this new improved person,and appreciating every second of that . I suddenly feel free .It’s a very liberating experience.

Another thing I have been making up for is my family and friends. They have had to do a lot for me.  They have had these amazing lives and all I could do was cheer from the sidelines. Now I have been able to be as involved  as I can be. Just able to be more encouraging , and helpful. Well hoping I am being more helpful … I guess I will find out soon enough

My 30th is this year. Oh my gosh I just typed that and I am shocked. Anyway Since the passed few years my birthdays weren’t anything to add to the best birthdays of my life. I thought definately make up for it. So that is being planned as I type. ..Am a very good multi tasker :).

Oh and watching comedies ..I love laughing and had not done much over the years, well only in the privacy of my own home due to constant coughing. SO its nice to laugh and not think ” Oh crud will have a coughing attack after this laugh” ,

My brain is making up for lost time as well. It questions everything . I mean I am happy about that it’s great to know things that interest you, However it also questions things I am not particularly interested in as well. Anyway I am not too worried about it..am sure thats one of the side affects of the medications  :).